| New Year, New Bitching |
[09 Jan 2008|12:15am] |
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i started off my new year at work... as usual, hating my boss and dealing with betty's sloppiness. she brought in meatballs. the slop was good with cheese on top.
amanda, chrissie and some others snuck off at midnight to watch the new ball drop on tv. never fails that a few minutes later, people get on the PA system and start paging people back to their respective areas to get their work done. ...it's new years eve people, cmon.. let us fucking watch the silly ball drop.
then on new years day, my father started a food fight with me. there were noodles in my hair, clothes, on the door, floor, stairs .....pretty much... everywhere. i actually had to take a SHOWER... god.. i almost made it a week. i thought it started off decent. my dad is never playful.
i plan to deepen my relationships with my friends. focus on me and my mental health. how much i can develop. ....rather than believing my ex's words.. "youll never be a good therapist."
fuck him. and fuck all those friends in 2007 who ditched me when i needed them the most. during the ....toughest year possible.
this is all about me. i dont care about the bitches and bastards who stabbed me in the back and betrayed me. as if i DONT already have trust issues. piss off to everyone from the past (except those who i KNOW... already know..)
and hello to those i have yet to meet. positive baby, oh yeah.
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[18 Jul 2007|01:14am] |
long time no see. i realise this.
input.
what does the process of self-development mean to you?
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| this is currently what i am experiencing.... |
[25 Mar 2007|10:31pm] |
Your Present Hexagram
People of ability find their way, and make progress even in difficult circumstances. Consider your steps carefully when you are surrounded by powerful forces. Weak and strong forces (or people) can co-exist when the weaker element does not impose upon the stronger, when the weaker maintains good humor and avoids taking bold action. When treading among sleeping tigers - or slippery stones - step gingerly; and don't stumble.
In the company of strong, brash people, rushing wildly ahead brings misfortune. Now is not a good time for taking the initiative; rather, try getting by with a little grace and good humor. In the court of a powerful king, the jester often has more power than the prince.
i also.... realise... this is my year anniversary for someone who doesnt give a shit about me.
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[23 Dec 2006|10:09pm] |
yeah, i don't update much...
whatever folks, myspace has taken over my life and is currently holding me hostage.
klotel is playing her gospel/christmas/jesus music at a level that his Holyness can probably hear himself.
that means, its drowning out my brotha lynch hung. so i guess ill just have to turn it up louder.
i actually have to go out tomorrow and get ONE more thing... just one.. and then wrap gifts. sigh. and cook more stuff. ive been so domestic lately i should be wearing hair curlers.
maybe ill update again later with more info about Klo-tel.
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[30 Oct 2006|10:01pm] |
curious....
do you think hot/mild/fire sauce from taco bell ever spoils?
....would it be safe to say it would even survive a nuclear holocaust? like twinkies?
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[22 Sep 2006|04:53pm] |
Friday, September 22, 2006
Virgo (Aug 23 - Sep 22)
Your feelings are likely so close to the surface that you are emotionally vulnerable and spiritually exposed. This isn't necessarily comforting, unless you are with someone you can absolutely trust. Relationships are changing along with your desires. It's time to move beyond your recent history. Get ready to let go and move boldly into your future, however uncertain it may appear now.
anyone have any tips on how to ignore someone? you know its for the best, but yet you really care about them? i cant seem to stop myself from texting. my phone needs to be taken away from me. or thrown into a wall. either one.
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| how accurate |
[02 Sep 2006|03:02pm] |
Saturday, September 2, 2006
Virgo (Aug 23 - Sep 22)
If everything feels like it's coming apart, you might just have to let the unraveling take its course. The loose ends will come back together again soon enough. Unexpected problems can be a sign that you were moving too fast and that your plans need to be reconsidered. You may be impatient with any thought that slows you down now. It's best to fight back any impulses to make final decisions. You need more time, no matter how urgent life seems.
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[24 Jul 2006|07:54am] |
the myspace outage this weekend is almost as devastating as the Great Blackout of '02.
i wonder how many people comitted suicide over the fact that they didnt have their myspace.
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[13 Jul 2006|09:17pm] |
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um. i think i might want to marry ryan adams.
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[07 Jul 2006|10:36pm] |
i hate my ipod.
so far, all night long its been randomly playing all the songs that make my heart sink or that make me want to fucking cry. or just get really angry.
way to go ipod feature, "shuffle songs"
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[27 May 2006|12:19am] |
I laughed harder than I have ever laughed like, in the past year tonight.
So let me set the stage....
Tara is this ghetto ass sistah from work who mumbles and talks to herself all the time. Picture half bleached out roots, fake eyelashes, walks with the ghetto walk, big titties, the whole shebang.
you know when someone at the bank says... "you have insufficient funds?"
She's the one who made the comment....
"this motha fucka has insignificant funds..."
so ok...
(yes, that is hilarious too)
Tara is like, mumbling to herself really loud in some language that only she can understand.
She cant like, form words let alone sentences..
and Katie is like, "HUUHHH?"
and Tara looks..
and shes like "HUHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhh?"
and it was hillaaaaaaaaaaaarious.
cause it was like, WTF are you saaaaaaaaaaaaaying.
hahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i guess you had to be there.
ps. im also listening to metal rather loudly pissing off the whole department probably.
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| this is interesting. |
[07 May 2006|02:06am] |
| You scored as classical. you're pretty classic yourself. you seem like a calm, intelligent person. you probably have a great vocabulary and get along with most people because you're really sweet.
classical | | 72% | emo | | 66% | punk rock | | 59% | hair metal/rock & roll/heavy metal | | 59% | experimental rock | | 59% | pop | | 44% | rap. | | 41% | pop punk | | 31% | hardcore. | | 31% | indie rock/elitist | | 25% | </td>
what genre of music do you act like? (this is really long)
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| new thrice is good. |
[06 May 2006|01:50pm] |
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I'm on new medication and it's making me fucking crazy. I have eaten a bowl of special K, a bag of combos and a couple pieces of cheesy bread the past two days. I'm nauseous, but can't eat. I have no desire to eat. I have this headache which decided to give me a little visit this morning. It's making me sick. And I'm really just.. anyway.
There isn't much more to say about that.
Sarah and I are going out for sushi now. This makes me happy, and a little less crazy. Because I know I should probably eat something, and if it's going to be forced, it's going to be sushi.
I'm going to clean out my ears now. Put in my pretty new earrings and attempt to have a decent day. The way things are looking to me right now though, the possibilties seem rather slim.
Maybe I will become a hermit and do absolutely nothing with my life except dedicate it to science and psychotherapy. I could read a book a day, subscribe to smart magazines, write journal articles, and go to conferences with other smart people that went into psychology just to figure out what the fuck is wrong with them. You see, there are two types of people that go into psychology. And it's fucking true, and I'll admit it. One, they go in trying to find out what their problem is, hoping to fix themselves and learn from their mistakes.
Maybe I shouldn't go as far as "learning from their mistakes" but there is one general subclass of people.
The others, are the ones who genuinely want to do good for other people. Who are sincerely interested in the general well-being of other people and the success of a longer healthier life. Mentally and physically.
I used to be the first, now I'm the second. I would like to think of myself as a healthy blend of the two, now that I know all the bullshit that "woe is me."
My point was, how many people are actually successful and respected in the field of psychology who still really haven't figured out what is wrong with them? Who are going about their lives as "a hermit who does absolutely nothing with their life except dedicate it to science and psychotherapy."
That's my thought for the day.
Anyway, I think maybe I will double post this to myspace as well.
Make sure you tell everyone who is important to you today that they are in fact very important. And you care about them. Nothing makes people feel better than to hear that they are actually needed, wanted, special and appreciated.
Your mother.
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[24 Apr 2006|06:18pm] |
I'm contemplating leaving this journal behind and starting new.
I kinda feel like I've turned over a new leaf yet again in my life. Like a year or so ago when I changed my AIM name... I dunno. I just don't want all this old shit in this journal reminding me of the past. It's like that bullshit with you-know-who, that went back and read all these things that really aren't me anymore. I just want to turn over a new leaf. Maybe I should get a blog instead of a livejournal. Maybe I shouldn't even have an online journal and just keep writing in my paper one.
Hopefully this new-me-ish type feeling lasts longer than a week or so. But I do feel a bit different.
I'm thinking about all this. If anyone has some input on the topic, feel free to leave a comment.
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[21 Apr 2006|03:42pm] |
its been like, 3 weeks or longer 2 weeks since ive logged onto livejournal.com.
ill read updates here in a bit, but most importantly i want to share this little ditty i found today while being psychotic.
"Take some extra time today to tell those close to you, how you feel about them. Talk out some problems you might be having with someone. Try to put small or even large differences behind you, and always try to be the bigger person. Just let your parents know that you love them, and tell your siblings that you think about them all the time (even though you don't spend as much time with them as you would like to anymore). I think that if we all spend more time being friends, than we spend being competitors ,life will get easier."
p.s. don't google someone's name unless you are willing and fully ready to accept the consequences.
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| i stole this from girlyunderwear |
[19 Mar 2006|06:06pm] |
If Women Were Happy
by Marc H. Rudov
Women are the unhappiest mammals on Planet Earth. How else could one explain labiaplasty? Facelifts, tummy tucks, boobjobs, eyejobs, cheek implants, liposuction, collagenized lips. Now, they’re reshaping and reducing their labia?!?!? Is there one part of a woman’s anatomy that she actually accepts or likes? Too bad James Watt didn’t invent the esteem engine. Women would be breaking down the doors to buy it.
How frequently must I hear from women that they prefer the company of men because their female friends endlessly whine and complain? How often must I hear that legions of girls who, in 2006, attend college only to obtain MRS degrees and snag men to take care of them? I’m not kidding. In fact, it’s worse than that. Recently, while a guest on a talkshow in Charlotte, NC, a 22-year-old college girl called me on the air to admit that many of her girlfriends are engaged in trading sex for car payments and clothes from their male classmates. Wow! Female unhappiness abounds. When women disrespect other women, I know there’s a problem. Men don’t speak this way about each other.
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